When life gives you lemons..

Today is one of those days.. It seems that these days I am having more and more of 'those days'.

I won't bore you too much with my problems which have been taking over my blog as of recently, infact I don't blog very often because I don't have anything nice to say..

However, we did go to the mall on Saturday and the 'big guy' was there waving and having a grand ol' time in his large red chair. Along with him were lights and an assortment of other holiday related items. The stores have completely bypassed Thanksgiving and headed straight into Christmas. I don't blame them, what better way to get people to spend money then to load their senses with holiday paraphernalia. It worked for me! I bought the kids 6 pairs of heavy knit tights, and their matching holiday dresses. Plus ofcourse who could go to the mall and pass up Cinnabon.. So about $100 spent in one day, oh and we also went to Home Depot to get a new hinge when I saw none other then MORE Christmas stuff, so we bought some icicle lights for the front of our house.

But that is the end of our buying, as I know we are living way beyond our means. And we don't really even buy much stuff. We just don't make much money, and with my student loans it looks like we have money that we don't really have.

I called the Vanc. Clinic, the lady said she could get our payments down to $329.40 a month. Which I guess we could make, if we did nothing else during the rest of the month and we completly ignored our other bills. It's really getting down to the nitty and the gritty here.

Plus we went to church yesterday and the pastor guy (we are still trying to find the 'right' church) is talking about how in order to be part of Jesus family you have to conform to the ways taught in the bible of a man and woman union.. WTF?? What kind of thing is that to say? I'm sorry but if you believe that to be true, then that is your thing.. But I don't believe that for a second!! I was furious, next he might say "And you have to have white skin and blond hair to be welcomed into this church." HOLY MOLEY, that was really hard hitting.

So then I told Julius that I thought that pastor was remakably bold to say something like that. And he said he didn't think it was that bad. That he wouldn't like it if one of the girls grew up to like girls.. I was then more infuriated, that is their choice and I will give them the right to choose who they like and who makes them happy.

Then he says, "Well what if drugs make them happy." WHAT? That is so not the same thing, that's not even related, as drugs are a mental stimulant and totally used by choice. Where I feel that being gay or a lesbian is not something you "choose" you are born with it and you can either fight it for your life and never be happy or you can do that your heart tells you. That has nothing, nothing to do with being happy on drugs..

Rediculous. Really before you get married, you should talk about these things. I feel this is a core value that we have really missed during our union discussion.

Now I am going to take a shower because just writing about all this has made me mad again.. That and I don't have any place to put my scrappin stuff, and I am just plain grouchy.